情人（1992）

是我买♥♥的吗？ – 还有谁？
Did I buy that for you? – Who else?
会有一天我们想要什么都让你买♥♥得起
Some days we can make you buy anything we want.
我忘了
I forgot.
知道吗
You know…
我不像你
I wasn’t like you.
我没你学习得那么轻松
I didn’t study as easily as you do and l…
我很严肃认真
I was very serious…
很长一段时间都这样
for so long…too long.
我就这样忘记了那种感觉
That’s how I lost the feeling…
忘记了我自己的喜乐
of my own pleasure.
他真的做了件好事
He did a really good thing, truly.
谁做了件好事？
Who did a good thing?
你朋友
Your friend…
你的中国朋友
your Chinese friend.
他还清了你哥哥在鸦♥片♥馆的债
He paid off your brother’s debts at the opium den.
回国的钱也是他付的
He also paid for the trip.
他真好
He was wonderful…
也很谨慎
very discreet, too.
我低估他了
I had underestimated him.
对不起
I’m sorry about that.
你只为钱和他在一起吗？
Do you only see him for the money?
是的
Yes.
当船最后要驶出港岸
It was when the boat uttered its first farewell…
当船板被支起
and the gangway had been hauled up…
拖船开始把客轮…
and the tugs had started to tow it…
脱离岸边时
to draw it away from the land…
她哭了
that she had wept.
她没有流泪
She’d done it without showing her tears…
没有让她母亲和弟弟看出来
without showing her mother or her little brother…
她很伤心
that she was sad…
她丝毫没有流露出半点感情
without showing anything…
就如她们之间的契约
as was the custom between them.
他来了
He was there.
后座上是他
That was him in the back…
那若隐若现的身形
that scarcely visible shape…
纹丝不动 她崩溃了
that made no movement, crushed.
她就如第一次在渡船上一样
She was leaning on the railing…
倚靠在栏杆上
like the first time on the ferry.
她知道他在注视着她
She knew he was watching her.
她也注视着他
She was watching him, too.
她看不见他了 但她依然
She couldn’t see him anymore, but she still looked…
朝黑色轿车的方向看着他
towards the shape of the black car.
最后 她再也看不见了
In the end, she didn’t see it anymore.
港口渐渐消失在眼中
The harbor had faded away…
之后那片土地也消失了
and then the land.
有一晚
One night…
在穿越印度洋时
during the crossing of the Indian Ocean…
在甲板上的大厅里
in the main room on the big deck…
听着肖邦的华尔兹舞曲
there had been a sudden burst…
她的感情突然迸发了
of a waltz by Chopin.
那晚
There wasn’t a breath of wind…
没有一丝空气的流动
and that night…
音乐荡漾在整个邮轮上
the music had spread all over the black liner…
宛如来自天堂的指令
Like an injunction from heaven…
莫名的感觉
related to something unknown…
就像上帝的指令
Like an order from God…
那种感觉不可言喻
whose meaning was inscrutable.
她哭了
She had wept…
因为她想到了中国城的那个男人
because she had thought of that man from Cholon…
他的情人
her lover…
突然间 她不确定了
and suddenly she wasn’t sure…
不确定她不爱他
of not having loved him…
那种爱她不曾预见
with a love she hadn’t seen…
因为它流逝在他们的故事中
because it had lost itself in the story…
就如沙中之水
Like water in the sand…
这时她才重新发现
and that she was rediscovering it now…
在这漂洋过海的音乐声中
in this moment of music flung across the sea.
战争结束后多年
Years after the war…
结了婚 有了孩子
after the marriages, the children…
又离婚 还写了书
the divorces, the books…
他和他妻子来到巴黎
he had come to Paris with his wife.
他打电♥话♥给她
He had phoned her.
他害怕极了
He was intimidated.
他的声音在颤抖
His voice trembled…
在颤抖中
and with the trembling…
她又一次听见了那中国的口音
it had found the accent of China again.
他知道她开始写书了
He knew she’d begun writing books.
他也听说了她弟弟的死
He had also heard about the younger brother’s death.
他为她悲伤
He had been sad for her…
然后他不知道和她说什么
and then he hadn’t known what to tell her…
之后他告诉她
and then he’d told her…
他告诉她他一如既往地
he had told her that it was as before…
始终爱着她
that he still loved her…
他永远不会停止爱她
that he would never stop loving her…
他会爱她到死
that he would love her until his death.