我的婚内情事（2022）

血清素
serotonin
和多巴胺
and dopamine.
它们对泽尔玛有三种不同的影响
They have three distinct effects on Zelma.
去甲肾上腺素让她面对谢尔盖时感到紧张
Norepinephrine makes her nervous in the presence of Sergei.
血清素让她除了谢尔盖什么都不想
Serotonin makes her think of nothing else but Sergei.
多巴胺会引发强烈的快♥感♥
Dopamine triggers an intense rush of pleasure,
增加能量 减少对睡眠和食物的需求
increased energy, less need for sleep and food,
多巴胺让她非常专注
and it gives her great focus.
这也让泽尔玛感到不可战胜和亢奋
It also makes Zelma feel invincible and euphoric.
啊哈
Aaaaaaaaah!
我的宝贝
My baby!
我亲爱的达娅
My beloved Darya!
我为什么要这样对你?
Why did I do this to you?
请睁开你美丽的眼睛 看看我
Please open your beautiful eyes, please look at me,
请告诉我你原谅我
please tell me you forgive me!
我求求你了
I beg you
在这个令人费解的成人世界里 隐藏着黑暗的一面
There was a dark secret side to the incomprehensible adult world
【21岁】书籍和毒品却都没有告诉我们
that neither books nor drugs told us about. Age 21
这是一个怎样的世界 你只犯了一个错误
What kind of world was it where you made just one mistake
就会死掉?
and you were dead?
在聚会和酗酒 吸毒或嗑药之时
Somewhere between the parties and getting drunk, high or stoned,
达娅怀孕了
Darya had gotten pregnant.
她不敢相信自己的身体会做出这种事
She couldn’t believe that her body would do such a thing,
所以她继续生活 就好像什么都没有改变
so she carried on as if nothing had changed
直到她的脚和手开始肿胀
until her feet and hands started to swell.
她太害怕了 不敢去看医生
She was too afraid to go to a doctor.
此外 她的母亲咒骂她失去童贞
Besides, her mother had cursed her for losing her virginity
并禁止她回家
and banned her from coming home.
然后达娅的整个身体开始肿胀
Then Darya’s whole body started to swell.
当她癫痫发作时 我们终于叫了辆救护车
When she had a seizure we finally called an ambulance.
我们被告知这个婴儿是以牺牲他母亲为代价而得救的
We were told that the baby had been saved at the expense of his mother.
现在达娅的身体冻得冰凉
Now Darya’s body was permafrost cold,
皮肤呈蓝色
her skin a bluish color,
体表覆盖着微小的冰晶
coated with tiny ice crystals.
原谅我 求你了!
Forgive me, Please!
原谅我
Forgive me!
男人不会这样死去
Men don’t die like this.
男人在战争中英勇战死
Men die heroically in wars.
一个女人的死…太平庸了
A woman’s death is just so… banal.
谁他妈的会死于分娩啊?
Who dies in childbirth, for fuck’s sake?
我以国家的名义
In the name of the State,
欢迎你们来到这里纪念生命
I welcome you here to honor the life
纪念你们所爱朋友的英年早逝
and mark the untimely death of the friend you loved.
嗯… 达娅·米什金娜
Uh… Darya Mishkina
是苏维埃社♥会♥主♥义♥共和国联盟的
was an outstanding citizen
一个杰出公民
of the Union of Soviet Socialist Republics.
她还是一个值得信赖的朋友和一个体贴的女儿
She was also a trusted friend and a caring daughter.
你想说些什么吗?
Would you like to say anything?
达娅是个好女人
Darya was a good woman.
她很能喝
She could take a lot of drink.
请向你的朋友和女儿告别
Please say goodbye to your friend and daughter
达娅·米什金娜
Darya Mishkina.
请合上棺盖
Please close the lid.
我根据州法律宣布
I declare by law of the State
达娅·米什金娜不再是苏联公民
that Darya Mishkina now ceases to be a citizen of the Soviet Union.
正式宣告她
She is officially
死亡
dead.
让我们对达娅·米什金娜的逝去表示敬意
Let’s honor Darya Mishkina’s departure.
达娅试图过上充实的生活
Darya was trying to live life to the fullest
也许她犯了一两个错误
and maybe she made a mistake or two.
但生活并没有一本详细的使用手册
But life doesn’t come with a detailed manual.
任何人都可能跌倒
Anybody can stumble.
和她睡过的那些男人都逃脱了惩罚 这太不公平了
It was unfair that the guys she slept with got off the hook.
做女人很危险 甚至可能致命
To be a woman is dangerous and can be deadly.
我太害怕做一个女人
I was so afraid to be a woman.
这个世界是一个无法理解 复杂的地方
The world is an incomprehensible, complicated place.
这个世界有太多的阴影
There are just too many shades in it.
我迷失在所有的变化和可能性中
I get lost in all the variations and possibilities.
但事实证明 这个世界很简单
But the world, it turns out, is very simple.
就像一个粉刺
Just like a pimple,
这个世界很简单
The world is very simple.
它只有两部分
It has only two parts –
男性和女性
Male and Female.
男性是事事理性
Male is everything rational.
女性是事事感性
Female is everything emotional.
男人理智 女人虚荣
Men are sane! Women are vain!
在自然中 你也可以看到
You can see it in nature –
天空和大地也有着不同的性质
air and earth have different qualities, too.
自然法则: 对立统一
Laws of nature, by the pair:
阴与阳 乾与坤
Yin and Yang, Earth and Air.
爱的存在是为了保持世界的平衡和统一
Love exists to keep the world in balance and unity.
女人爱上男人
Women fall in love with men
是因为男人很聪明
because men are smart.
男人爱上女人
Men fall in love with women
是因为男人需要支持
because men need support.
不要破坏自然计划的美丽
Don’t ruin the beauty of the natural plan.
女人的职责是和男人在一起
Your woman’s duty is to be with a man.
与其做野花 不如做玫瑰
Better to be a rose than a wild flower.
服从是你的终极力量
Submission is your ultimate power.
我以国家的名义
In the name of the State,
欢迎你们来到这个阳光明媚的大厅
I welcome you to this sunny hall.
今天你们 苏维埃社♥会♥主♥义♥共和国联盟的
Today you, the son and the daughter
儿子和女儿
of the Union of Soviet Socialist Republics,
组成一个苏联家庭开始共同生活
are joining lives together as a Soviet family.
你们私下的爱情得到官方认可
Your private love becomes official.
我们伟大国家的全体人♥民♥
All people of our great country
对你们的结合充满希望
are looking at your union with hope.
不要辜负他们
Don’t disappoint them.
2.8亿人把希望寄托在我们身上 压力巨大
280 million people putting their hopes on us was a lot of pressure.
事实证明 婚姻比我预期的更加公开
Marriage turned out to be more public than I expected.
作为国家代表 我询问你
As a representative of the State, I am asking you,
泽尔玛·列帕
Zelma Liepa
你准备好履行妻子和母亲的光荣职责了吗?
are you ready to fulfill the honorable duties of wife and mother?
是的
Yes.
你 谢尔盖·科洛登科
Are you, Sergei Kholodenko,
准备好支持你的妻子了吗?
ready to be a worthy support to your wife?
是的
Yes.
请签名确保你们的结合
Please secure your union with signatures.
根据苏联法律
By law of the Soviet Union,
在你们的共同协议见证和盖章后
with your mutual agreement witnessed and sealed,
我现在宣布你们为夫妻
I now pronounce you husband and wife.
你们可以接吻了
You may kiss.
尊敬的来宾和新婚夫妇
Dear guests and newlyweds,
让我们纪念这一特殊时刻
let us honor this special moment.
从现在起 他会一直爱我
Now he would always love me.
无条件地 就像我的家人一样
Unconditionally, like my family.
他原谅了我失去的童贞
He forgave my lack of virginity,
原谅了我刚开始做饭时为他做的糟糕饭菜
forgave the bad meals I made for him when I was new to cooking.
如果他过去原谅了我 他将来就会原谅我的坏情绪
If he forgave me that he would forgive my bad moods,
早晨难闻的口气
foul morning breath,
我的月经
my menstruation,
我的阴♥道♥炎
my yeast infections
以及与他的能力和才华相比 我的自卑
and my inferiority compared to his abilities and talents.
和这个男人在一起 我是个完整的女人
I was a complete woman with this man.
这次婚姻注定会成为一个传奇
This marriage was made to be a legend.
它会比我们的肉体更长久
It would outlast our mortal bodies.
泽尔玛最初对谢尔盖的吸引力在催产素的帮助下
Zelma’s initial attraction to Sergei was turned into a hunger for him
变成了对他的渴望
with the help of oxytocin,
催产素是泽尔玛的下丘脑每天产生
a neurotransmitter hormone that Zelma’s hypothalamus
并储存在脑下垂体中的一种神经递质激素
produces and stores in the pituitary gland every day.