好想爱这个世界啊 [I want to love this world]

抱着沙发 睡眼昏花 凌乱头发
却渴望像电影主角一样潇洒

屋檐角下 排着乌鸦 密密麻麻
被压抑的情绪不知如何表达

无论我 在这里 在那里
仿佛失魂的虫鸣
却明白此刻应该做些努力

无论我 在这里 在那里
不能弥补的过去
每当想起

想过离开
以这种方式存在
是因为 那些旁白 那些姿态 那些伤害

不想离开
当你说还有你在
忽然我开始莫名 期 待

夕阳西下 翻着电话 无人拨打
是习惯孤独的我该得到的吧

独木桥呀 把谁推下 才算赢家
我无声的反抗何时能战胜它

无论我 在这里 在 那里
仿佛失魂的虫鸣
却明白此刻应该做些努力

无论我 在这里 在那里
不能弥补的过去
每当想起

想过离开
以这种方式存在
是因为 那些旁白 那些姿态 那些伤害

不想离开
也许尝试过被爱
会开始仰望未来
伤 疤 就丢给回忆吧
放下 才得到更好啊
别 怕 别 怕

想过离开
当阳光败给阴霾
没想到你会拼命为我拨开

曾想过离开
却又坚持到现在
熬过了 那些旁白 那些姿态 那些伤害

不想离开
当你的笑容绽开
这世界突然填满 色彩

抱着沙发 睡眼昏花 凌乱头发
夕阳西下 接通电话 是你呀

English #1 – Oh, How I Want to Love This World

I’m cuddled up on the sofa, with bleary eyes, and messy hair
But I long to be as handsome as a movie star

Under the eaves outside, a line of crows, are packed together
I don’t know how to express my own feelings packed inside

It doesn’t matter if I’m here or there
Like the spiritless chirping of bugs
But I understand that I must do something now

It doesn’t matter if I’m here or there
The irreparable past
Whenever it comes to mind…

I have thought about leaving
and letting that be how I exist
Because of those narratives, those attitudes, and those hurts

I don’t want to leave
So when you say you’re still here
Suddenly, I have something to hope for

The sun is setting, I scroll through my phone, but nobody’s called
As a loner, this is what I should expect, right?

Am I expected to push other people down just so I can win?
I resist in silence, but when will I succeed?

It doesn’t matter if I’m here or there
Like the spiritless chirping of bugs
But I understand that I must do something now

It doesn’t matter if I’m here or there
The irreparable past
Whenever it comes to mind…

I have thought about leaving
and letting that be how I exist
Because of those narratives, those attitudes, and those hurts

I don’t want to leave
Perhaps, if I try to accept being loved
then I could begin looking forward to the future
Scars, just leave them with the memories
Lay them down, so there’s room for something better
Don’t be afraid, don’t be afraid

I have thought about leaving
When the sunshine succumbs to darkness
I can’t believe you would sweep it aside for me with all your might

I have thought about leaving
(But I’ve always persevered)
(I’ve endured those narratives, those attitudes,) and those hurts

I don’t want to leave
When your smile blossoms
The world is suddenly filled with colors

I’m cuddled up on the sofa, with bleary eyes, and messy hair
The sun is setting, a call comes in. It’s you.

Submitted by Experience Hua Chenyu

English #2 – Really Wanna Love This World

Hugging the sofa, eyes bleary, hair messy
Yet yearning to be as carefree as the main character in a movie

Crows packed densely together under the eaves
No clue how to express these suppressed feelings

Doesn’t matter whether I’m here or there
Like a restlessly buzzing insect
Yet knowing that right now I should at least put in some effort

Doesn’t matter whether I’m here or there
The past that cannot be remedied
Resurfaces on my mind every time

Thought about leaving
The reason for existing like this
Is because of those narratives, those stances, and those wounds

Didn’t wanna leave
When you said “I’m still here”
Suddenly hope flared inside of me

Sun is setting, scrolling through my contacts, no one to call
I suppose it’s what I deserve for always doing things alone

On a single-log bridge, who does one have to push off in order to be deemed a winner?
When will my silent resistance defeat it?

Doesn’t matter whether I’m here or there
Like a restlessly buzzing insect
Yet knowing that right now I should at least put in some effort

Doesn’t matter whether I’m here or there
The past that cannot be remedied
Resurfaces on my mind every time

Thought about leaving
The reason for existing like this
Is because of those narratives, those stances, and those wounds

Didn’t wanna leave
Perhaps those that have tried accepting love
Will start looking forward to the future
Cast the scars into memories
And let them go. For only then can one receive even better things
Don’t be afraid, don’t be afraid

Thought about leaving
When sunlight lost to the haze
I was surprised by how hard you tried to drive it away for me

Thought about leaving
But held on till now
Endured those narratives, those stances, and those wounds

Didn’t wanna leave
When you smiled radiantly
This world suddenly filled with color

Hugging the sofa, eyes bleary, hair messy
Sun is setting, call coming through, oh it’s you

Submitted by anotheranon